Wednesday, September 16, 2009

gosh i haven't used blogger for so long i've forgotten how annoying it can get. anyway, on a completely random note, i came across some lovely photos online taken by a very creative grandad. i particularly like the last one of the jigsaw puzzle :) kind of makes you appreciate clouds a little bit more eh? i'd like to go cloud watching and try this one day but i doubt singapore has clouds like these. the haze, perhaps.








anyway, if you're interested, you can see the rest of his skyplay collection here:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/h19/sets/72157594182549008/


-yufen

Monday, September 14, 2009

guess who's back

hallooooooooooooooooooo :)


-yufen

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

this post is for all, especially marc since he is always bugging for the photos

Photos are of lousy quality because i used my phone to take em. hang around to see more photos taken using a proper camera. AND i have loads of videos too. MURPHY IS ADORABLE! i love you boyy


























video

And no he is no longer MJ but MURPHY video

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Once was lost, now am found

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate,
And the Master so gently said, "Child, you must wait."
"Wait? You say, wait!" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!

Is Your hand shortened?
Or have You not heard?
By faith, I have asked, and am claiming Your Word.
My future and all to which I can relate hangs in the balance, and You tell me to wait?
I'm needing a "Yes", a go-ahead sign,
or even a "No" to which I can resign.

And Lord, You promised that if we believe
we need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:"I'm weary of asking! I need a reply!"
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate

As my Master replied once again "You must wait."
So, I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut and grumbled to God,
"So, I'm waiting...for what?"
He seemed, then, to kneel and His eyes wept with mine,
and He tenderly said "I could give you a sign.

I could shake the heavens, and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead, and cause mountains to run.

"All you seek, I could give, and pleased you would be.
You would have what you want - but, you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint;
You'd not know the power I give to the faint.
"You'd not learn to see through the clouds of despair;
You'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there;
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me;
When the darkness and silence were all you could see.

"You'd never experience the fullness of love
as the peace of My Spirit descends like a dove;
You'd know that I give and I save, for a start,
but you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
"The flow of my comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give when you walk without sight,
the depth that's beyond getting just what you askedof an infinite God,
who makes what you have last.

"You'd never know, should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that 'My grace is sufficient for thee.'
Yes, your dreams for your loved one overnight would come true,
But, Oh, the Loss! If I lost what I'm doing in you!"
So, be silent, My child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to get to know Me.
And though oft' may
My answers seem terribly late
My most precious answer of all is still, 'Wait.'


I have found it. I found the answer, I found what God really wants. I finally finally got it. And the funny thing is the answer lay right before my eyes, God was shouting at me, i didn't get it till now. better late then never i guess.

How i am feeling? excited, scared, nervous, scared, scared, more scared.. "what if i can't" keeps running through my mind. This is the WALKING ON WATER. THIS IS IT!!

Words cannot express how much i love the above poem and how timely is has appeared at this season. Special thanks to Oak Blog, Kenneth posted it, and Kenneth got it from Kax's blog last year. So basically thank you to all you guys.


The answer from God is not a yes, not a no, instead it is silence, it is a call to WAIT

"strength will rise when we wait upon you Lord" - Everlasting God


claud

Saturday, August 1, 2009

I loved today.

I had a nice saturday.



I somehow enjoyed tuition today. it wasn't as energy zapping. ha.



I had a nice thought-provoking and edifying lunch.




I went to visit my granny who was ill. and i got to just sit there with her, talking to her, nobody around other than my other cousin, just 3 of us sitting there and talking, and talking abt childhood stuff, sickness, chickenpox etccc.with my granny. it was NICE. i have not have had since like errrr.. i cannot remember when. Normally saturday evenings at granny is bustling and very nice and warm but noisy, everyone is there, all my favourite uncles and aunties and cousins. but this afternoon, it was quiet, it was nice.



I went for a swim - though the swim wasn't fantastic, there was NO SUN, and worse, there was 2 couples in the pool. and the female (in bikini )is clinging onto the male like a Koala on a Branch. and it was disgusting, seeing what they kept doing, and they kept walking around the pool, they weren't swimming, they kept walking into my path. URGH. so i just kicked harder when they were around, hahahah. seriously it is a SWIMMING POOL not a WALKING POOL for skimpily clad koalas and their branch.




I had a nice dinner - margaret drive CLAYPOT RICE> all time favourite, very popular. next to COOS. we had to wait 35 mins for the food, but it was worth it. nice dinner with my mom, dad and cynthia. i had there was a stampede last time many years ago while ppl were queueing for this. And i bumped into a very old swim friend just when i was thinking how he was doing. what a coincidence..




I got to read and i just couldn't stop. I changed into PJs, read stories of women facing injustice and persecution simply because they are Christians. you read their pain, their joy in their pain, you read about their dreams and how they surrender everything to God, you read about how they PRAY. and i am challenged. i wonder, why am i so comfortable in Singapore?




I googled random stuff which i have been thinking for a while and found stuff.



I prepared DG work and just dived and enjoyed God's word. with my new ESV study bible, the aircon, with Jad singing in the background (ahhhhh nicee.), everything was just amazing.




Spending time with Him is always nice.. something which i have not been doing ENOUGH, i need more of tonight - you know what is the funny thing, it is a SATURDAY night, you know how "NUA" i am on saturday nights, how i get restless in my room, in my house (my parents were also pleasantly surprised i wasn't out somewhere).





Beth Moore

" God surpasses our dreams when we reach past our personal plans and agendas to grab the hand of Christ and walk the path He chose for us. He is obligated to keep us dissatisfied until we come to Him and His plan for complete satisfaction"


i love you GOD.

CLAUD

Monday, July 13, 2009

Banchang July 2009...

... was 12 amazing, funny, lesson-learning, tiring days..

And going on the trip with Mag, Dawn and Glenn really made things even more awesome, each of them taught me different lessons.

here are some classic moments from Banchang which never fail to crack me up and put a smile on my face or just be amazed at how GREAT and GOOD our God is:

1. seeing Pi Anong smile and grin when it was raining and the roof was leaking on Sunday when the congregation was eating lunch.. she looked SO HAPPY, even when she had a mask under her chin.

2. Dawn and her bestie Young Nice Man.

3. long emo van rides and listening to Two Words on repeat with Dawn

4. Pattaya Floating Market

5. Cell group

6. late night suppering on snacks

7. Kru Aiew and her stash of chocolate

8. Pi Kek singing Above All and her "May i have your attention please..."

9. Pi Anong learning how to say "Alamak" and her serving with all her strength even though she was ill

10. Sony and " i bath with my underpants"

11. " YOU BE DEAD"

12. Kru Aor and her dancing and screaming. HILARIOUS.

13. teaching teachers English and playing hangman

14. Mag falling down and tripping on the stage. classic. if you want an re-enactment ask me

15. feeding elephants

16. Meiji milk

17. Glenn and his very shapeless paper hat and his fever

18. and the kids at low cost housing. =)

many more. i made friends in Banchang.. and the people there are different, they are amazing. P.R.A.Y for them.

i love you guys. see you soon. i know i will be seeing you guys again!

claud

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

it is 2.05am and i don't know why am i here...

i have packed.

As i type the NUS nursing freshies camp is in progress. I wonder how everything is. I am a senior now. Oh my gosh.

Life has been.. moleskine, thinking, moleskine, writing, reading, SKS-ing, catching up with people and hearing..


My sisters. I miss you guys..
Banchang team, keep us in your prayerss..
claudd